This will be short and sweet because most of my reflecting will come in the next couple of days. Tomorrow I will be one of the few teachers in our school being evaluated using the corporation's new tool. I spent six glorious training sessions last year being "trained" in something I cannot even being to describe. OK, maybe cognitive coaching is one way to describe it. Anywho, at the end, we learned that those of us who went through the training would be "guinea pigs".
I actually like the new tool, although I have no clue how administrators will ever be able to complete everything it requires...I pray for them.
Tomorrow one of the assistant principals who I worked with all year will be visiting my 3rd hour. I picked this class because it is my biggest struggle. I need help, I need insight, I need careful examination. I could have asked my AP to visit any of my other classes that run like clockwork, but I realized that wouldn't be true to my commitment to reflective practice. My AP will be observing this particular class for all of my evaluations. To say I'm nervous would be an understatement. Tomorrow, all of my weaknesses and challenges will be exposed, and I'm scared. I think it's natural to want people to see you at your best, so to willingly open myself up to being seen at my worst makes me cringe a little.
Yet, it's authentic, and if there's anything people should know about me by now, it's that I keep it real 24/8. No facade here. No false pretenses. No putting on a show. I do me...even when me needs a lot of work.
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